Hair Growth: Part II

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So I’m laying on my bed, reading about “The Centrality of Carbon to the Organic Molecules of Life” (riveting, right?) when it hits me like a ton of bricks…soft, squishy bricks. I definitely missed my 3 months hair growth post.

#fail

Three months came and went and two months beyond that (so five months, for those of you not great at math, not unlike me) I’m finally getting around to posting about the beast. I’ve decided that’s what it is going to be called until it turns into something beautiful (hopefully) someday.

Pixies are a wonderful thing, they truly are…unless you’re a person who loves change and gets bored with hair easily. Then it becomes this annoying, awkward mop just resting on your head. Mid-August I wrote a post about growing out my pixie, and with it were pictures of my hair, after growing it out for a month.

I’m now a little over 6 months, but I feel as though I’ve gotten nowhere. For those of you suffering along with me, growing out a pixie, this post is for you. Not only do you get to see my hair a tad longer, but I will also show a few hairstyles I use to get me through the most awkward of phases.

My hair now:

Three Sides

As you can see from my last post, it has grown out quite a bit, it just doesn’t feel like it. A couple weeks after being home from Honduras, mid-October, my sister-in-law gave me a mullet-trim, and did some extra work with the style, so that it wouldn’t feel so moppy growing out. Weeks and weeks later, I gave myself a mullet-trim. Two weeks afterwards, over Christmas week, my sister-in-laws mother (former haidresser) chopped off tons in the back to make it look somewhat decent. I feel like it’s already getting to a place of being shaggy and gross.

I can’t quite tuck my hair behind my ears yet, because this happens:

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I’m not sure of anyone that can pull that look off well..and I’m hoping that in about a month, my layers will be long enough to be tucked behind my ears and not poof out so much.

If you’ve looked at any other blogs about growing out a pixie, you will hear that headbands and hairpins will be like a gift from heaven, and they aren’t wrong. They truly do make all the difference! I’m a girl who likes simple, quick fixes (hence why I chopped all my hair off), so these are all simple things that only take a minute or two to do!

1) Tucking one side behind ear:

pulled to side bobby pin

My hair poofs out, as shown above, unless I use a bobby pin to secure the hair down. You can do this by either twisting your hair away from your face, or doing what they call a “fake braid”, which I will show in another style, and securing with a bobby pin.

2) Tucked hair with a bow/flower:

tucked ear bows

Ignore the awful exposure..I had to change it so you could see my flower pin. These are small flower/bow clips and pins you can get super cheap. Two of my favorite places for these pins are Wal-mart (surprisingly) and Forever 21. They go in easily, and you can wear them with a lot of different outfits!

3) Fake braid along hairline:

fake braid

(Ignore that extremely attractive picture of me while in the process of braiding…) This is and has been one of my favorite things for a few years now. I love it because it’s quick, can be done without a mirror, and looks a lot more complex than it is. You do the same thing you would with a french braid, except with only two strands of hair! As I mentioned earlier, you can do this on the other side to get the hair out of our face. This one is especially great for the days your bangs just do not want to cooperate!

4) Elastic headbands:

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I have a few other “hair wraps”, but this one is my absolute favorite elastic headband. I have always had trouble with these because they never stay on, but this one is fantastic (and reversible, can you tell I’m excited!?)! These, you obviously just slip over your hair. They can also be worn with a fake (or real) braid to hold back the rest of your hair! I got this headband from Rue 21, and Forever 21 also carries great headbands, elastic and plastic/metal!

5) Plastic/metal headbands:

plastic metal headband

If you haven’t figured it out yet, I love bows and flowers. Plastic and metal headbands can pull back the heaviness on the side, or to completely tuck your hair behind your ears. Again, they work great with your bangs braided back!

To close, and mostly for my own satisfaction, is a one month and sixth month comparison of my hair growth:

1 and 6 monthsThanks for checking this out! Smell ya later…

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Catching Grace

Many of you know me as Sadie Grace. Some of you even believe that Grace is my middle name, but it’s not. Grace has been deemed as my middle name because I am not the most graceful of people. If there is something to be walked into or tripped over, I will be there, doing exactly that.

Since being in Honduras (a little over two months now), I have messed up my knee by tripping up stairs, received blisters for the first time on my feet, gotten a new scar on each of my ankles, had numerous cuts on my fingers from knives, pens and my contact lens case (yes, you read that right..I didn’t know it was possible either) and of course, adopted many new bruises.

I have so many scars on my body, and many of them come with funny stories to be told. I don’t think my legs have ever been bruiseless, and most times I’m not even sure where they came from.

This is not the kind of grace that I am talking about though, although I wish it were possible for me to catch some of that.

I’m talking about God-given grace and self-given grace.

I recently wrote a post, with much of God’s help, about where I am in my walk called Quite Honestly: Relearning, because that’s exactly where I am. I’m taking a step back from my current situations, circumstances and plans and handing them all to Christ, and letting Him lead in everything. It’s causing for many frustrations and disappointments, therefore I’m learning the importance of grace. 

1 Peter 5:10 says, “And after you suffer for a short time, God, who gives all grace, will make everything right. He will make you strong and support you and keep you from falling. He called you to share in his glory in Christ, a glory that will continue forever” (NCV). This is said right after the author (most likely, Peter) talks about resisting temptation and about satan’s desire to destroy us. I feel like this past year and a half I have been in that time of suffering, but I was blinded by it as well.

I’m now in a place of grace. I’m learning to accept grace not just each morning, but in every moment. To remind myself that I am not perfect, and I never will be.

Grace isn’t about not putting your best foot forward, but about understanding that God is with you when you try to put your best foot forward and miss the step. 

He will guide you in the next steps and continue to fill you with His spirit. Just as 1 Peter 5:10 says, God desires to make us strong, He desires to support us and to make shine for His glory. That is such a beautiful thing!

I’m still figuring out what grace truly looks like, and what God originally intended it to be. I’m learning how to accept it in ways that are truly life-changing, not just moment-changing.

Accepting grace is never easy, especially for those of us who are hard on ourselves. I have always been one to get easily upset with myself. I’m beginning to realize just how many blessings and beautiful things I have missed because of that. I’m also learning to deal myself quite a bit of grace for those moments that I don’t feel like I’m quite measuring up.

So, that is why the title of this blog has been changed. I’m learning how to catch grace and make it part of my daily living. It’s certainly not easy, but it’s one of the many blessings God offers us in this life.

Have a blessed day,

-Sadie

Hair Growth

Recently, I got my hair cut in Guatemala City. It made me miss haircuts in Ohio.  They use scissors here, and that’s it. It’s not a bad cut, she did a pretty good job, but short cuts take more than just a straight scissor cut. Also, she started cutting and she just kept going. I guess that’s okay because I’ve always wanted the super short pixie cut. But, now I’ve had it for two weeks, and I’m bored (and a little annoyed with how it’s grown out). I can’t even wear headbands  or cute clips at this length because of the choppy layers.

I want to do this for all my fellow pixie-cut wearers out there who have faced the challenge of growing it out. I want to post an update every 3 months to show progress and some tips.

Here are my Month 1 pictures:

August 2013

August 18, 2013

Quite Honestly: Relearning

I’m relearning everything.

In high school, I had a great fire inside of my heart for God. It was one of very few constants in my life, and I loved it.

In the past couple of weeks, I have begun to realize that this fire has died down…a lot…and that scared me.

Over the past year, Honduras had become my passion, which wasn’t a bad thing, but in this case it wasn’t the best. My passion for Honduras became to overtake my passion for Christ. I spent more time fueling that fire and putting energy into Honduras than I did into my relationship with God.

That relationship was always there, but it was changing. My heart was slowly pulling away from Christ and the tight relationship that had once existed.

I’m not exactly sure when my God-fire started fading, or when I stopped fueling it. It was one of those things that happened so slowly that I didn’t even notice (which is something else that scares me).

This trip has most definitely been the most challenging thing I have done in my life. As a 20-year-old, who still lives with her parents, there were so many new things for me to experience. Some of them have been great, and others not so great (I love mac n’ cheese, but sometimes that low-budget meal just doesn’t cut it). I have had to depend on God in ways I never did before. I’ve needed to depend on Him for comfort, strength, courage and most often, grace. Fortunately, we serve a God who is ever-ready to provide for our needs The problem is when we stop depending on Him first, and still expect Him to provide in everything.

This has been such a humbling experience for me, relearning the basics of my faith. I am learning the many places in which I need growth in my life, and have been taking steps in that. I feel like I have been truly growing up, truly maturing in ways I wouldn’t be able to without this experience. I still have so far to go.

This week, the biggest thing I have learned is God’s desire for us to be with him. I can feel it so often. Him just calling me to be with Him. Just to sit in his presence, soak in His truth. So many times I ignore it, thinking I have better things to do or whatever excuse I have at the time. Those times I do listen, God does huge things. I don’t know why it is so difficult for me to listen. I’m sure you’ve done the same thing. Sometimes, you just know God is calling to you, and yet, it’s so easy to pretend you can’t hear it. I’m learning how to tune my heart to His when He is calling me.

In the midst of all this growing and learning, I’m reliving my life again. I’m shedding all the lies that I began to buy into, and soaking up all the truths God has for me. It’s a process and not always successful, but it’s happening. I’m finding the joy and peace in which my life used to exist inside of and learning to live it out again.

I want a complete stranger to look at me, and see Christ.

Not just think that I have something different, or that my smile is full of joy, but that Christ is actually inside of me and leaking out.

I want Him to be undeniable.

The only way this is possible, is by soaking Him in.

It is such a challenge, it’s such a battle between the heart and mind. I am constantly having to choose Christ over worldly things, and I can’t say that is easy. It is incredibly difficult. Yet, the more often I choose Christ, the easier that choice gets. I believe that someday, it will not be a choice, but rather a habit. It will not be a chore (as it feels sometimes), but a delight. It will sincerely feel like something is missing if I haven’t had my time with Him. Why? Because that is how my life used to be. I used to dread having extremely full days, because I wouldn’t have time to just sit and be present with Him.

I could keep writing. I could talk about the challenges and triumphs I am walking through, but that isn’t my goal tonight.

My goal tonight is to be completely honest about where God has me, because I realized something today.

Here I am, at 20, living in a foreign country (supposedly the most dangerous country in the world) by myself, teaching English as a second language, and I am a missionary.

And yet, my priorities in life are completely off-balance.

In my heart, I am not a missionary, that is just a word. I don’t want that to be the case. I want missionary to be a heart-thing for me. I want to say I’m a missionary and feel that ring in my heart, in a way that makes God proud.

This is part of my testimony. No, I didn’t do stupid stuff in high school. I didn’t get into drugs or partying. I didn’t rebel against everything my parents raised me to be.

I don’t really have a past to run away from, and yet, I do.

Mistakes are mistakes, sin is sin. Turning from God looks the same to Him, even if it looks different to us. Planning life around what you want and what you think is best, is dishonoring to God if you aren’t first seeking Him. Dishonoring is something I never want to be, and yet it was something I was slowly becoming.

I lost sight of who I was, and was beginning to lost sight of who God is.

This blog, from the very beginning has been about two things: to keep my friends and family updated on life and to share what God is teaching me (in hopes of inspiring others). Those are the two things I always want it to be about. I can’t see the ways God has used this blog, I don’t know the people it has reached or not reached. All I know, is that God has put this passion and love of writing in my heart, and I am going to follow that endlessly.

This is where it starts. Honesty, relearning, grace, rebuilding and faith all start here. I don’t know where they will end, but I do know that God will be walking along-side me in all of this. At times, I’m sure he will be carrying me, but He will be present regardless.

Opening my heart in this way has always been scary for me, but it is part of the process.

So that is where I am, and I humbly ask you to be praying for me. God is so much bigger than my little brain can wrap around, and that excites me. I’m so glad to know that following Him is endless, that there is not a stopping point in my relationship with Him! He isn’t going to suddenly decide He is finished, and stop working in me.

So I’m going to keep walking towards Him and continue to relearn the basics of my faith.

A special thanks to everyone who has been supporting me on this journey. I cannot tell you how incredibly blessed I feel to have all of you around me, lifting me up in prayer and encouraging words.

Have a very blessed day,

-Sadie