Gifts Used for Growth

“You are exactly where you are supposed to be, now and forever.” This was my reminder all through high school and into my college days. I needed to remember that 1) God was holding me and 2) He could use me exactly where I was standing.

I’ve been starting to recognize the irony of the situations God places us in. He has given me the gift of writing (or so I’ve been told), and a passion for literature and writing. Yet, I have some major issues with vulnerability. I can fake it well, I can seem like an open book. I also can be vulnerable with select people, but to be vulnerable to anyone and everyone who happens to stubble across my blog? That’s a bit terrifying. I’ve always been a private person. I still talk to people, there are always people who know what’s going on in my life, but it’s limited.

A little while ago, while talking with a mentor, I began to realize that writers must be vulnerable. Anyone who writes anything, in any form, is being vulnerable. Whether you’re writing a blog post, song or poem, you are revealing something about yourself. Some forms of writing are revealing your deepest hurts, frustrations and weaknesses. All characters we write are related either to us or someone we know. All story plots have a little pieces of our real-life stories connected. All song lyrics hold some emotion that was found somewhere within yourself.

How funny is it that God would use the very gift He has given me, a strength, to push healing and growth in one of my biggest weaknesses.

I’m not always the best at being completely vulnerable on here. There have been many a post that I have scraped because I feel like I’m revealing too much of myself. Of course, I do have to use discernment in this area, I can’t share just anything, but I still aim to be real and relevant to anyone who reads.

Take a minute to think about your gifts and your weaknesses, and I bet you’ll find some connection there.

Who says God doesn’t have a sense of humor?!

Have a blessed day!

-Sadie

Catching Grace

Many of you know me as Sadie Grace. Some of you even believe that Grace is my middle name, but it’s not. Grace has been deemed as my middle name because I am not the most graceful of people. If there is something to be walked into or tripped over, I will be there, doing exactly that.

Since being in Honduras (a little over two months now), I have messed up my knee by tripping up stairs, received blisters for the first time on my feet, gotten a new scar on each of my ankles, had numerous cuts on my fingers from knives, pens and my contact lens case (yes, you read that right..I didn’t know it was possible either) and of course, adopted many new bruises.

I have so many scars on my body, and many of them come with funny stories to be told. I don’t think my legs have ever been bruiseless, and most times I’m not even sure where they came from.

This is not the kind of grace that I am talking about though, although I wish it were possible for me to catch some of that.

I’m talking about God-given grace and self-given grace.

I recently wrote a post, with much of God’s help, about where I am in my walk called Quite Honestly: Relearning, because that’s exactly where I am. I’m taking a step back from my current situations, circumstances and plans and handing them all to Christ, and letting Him lead in everything. It’s causing for many frustrations and disappointments, therefore I’m learning the importance of grace. 

1 Peter 5:10 says, “And after you suffer for a short time, God, who gives all grace, will make everything right. He will make you strong and support you and keep you from falling. He called you to share in his glory in Christ, a glory that will continue forever” (NCV). This is said right after the author (most likely, Peter) talks about resisting temptation and about satan’s desire to destroy us. I feel like this past year and a half I have been in that time of suffering, but I was blinded by it as well.

I’m now in a place of grace. I’m learning to accept grace not just each morning, but in every moment. To remind myself that I am not perfect, and I never will be.

Grace isn’t about not putting your best foot forward, but about understanding that God is with you when you try to put your best foot forward and miss the step. 

He will guide you in the next steps and continue to fill you with His spirit. Just as 1 Peter 5:10 says, God desires to make us strong, He desires to support us and to make shine for His glory. That is such a beautiful thing!

I’m still figuring out what grace truly looks like, and what God originally intended it to be. I’m learning how to accept it in ways that are truly life-changing, not just moment-changing.

Accepting grace is never easy, especially for those of us who are hard on ourselves. I have always been one to get easily upset with myself. I’m beginning to realize just how many blessings and beautiful things I have missed because of that. I’m also learning to deal myself quite a bit of grace for those moments that I don’t feel like I’m quite measuring up.

So, that is why the title of this blog has been changed. I’m learning how to catch grace and make it part of my daily living. It’s certainly not easy, but it’s one of the many blessings God offers us in this life.

Have a blessed day,

-Sadie